What the caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls a butterfly ∞

Stunning double rainbow in Chiang Mai, Thailand on Friday ❤

Have you ever wanted something so bad, you just HAD to have it?

For example, when you were a kid and you begged your parents for that shiny new race-car or cute little baby doll. When you saw it, you just knew, that was it and nothing else could take its place. Every chance you got, you asked for it, over and over, until one day you finally opened it on Christmas or your birthday. Then… the moment you opened it, all the warm feelings of excitement, gratefulness, and satisfaction washed over you and you may have thought, nothing could be better than this! And I’m so glad I was soooo persistent. And maybe you were too young to know what persistence even meant…

But What are you asking for? What do you want so bad you have to have?

Or is it something you think you can’t have or don’t think you’ll ever be able to obtain. Well, if that’s how you’re gonna think then you definitely won’t! That’s life baby. Some things you won’t be able to get if you keep thinking you’ll never be able to have them and vice versa. I use to think I’d never be able to start a business and really be successful, but here I am launching my own website!

Not knowing if I’m going to succeed or fail….

Well let me tell you, that little voice inside of your head that is telling you, you can’t do this, you can’t do that,  is bullshitting you, and, well you gotta ignore the living shit out of it before you believe it. I use to tell myself over and over again that one day I’ll be able to pursue my dreams, but it wasn’t until I took action that things started to happen. Your dreams are literally right there you just have to step out of your comfort zone, reach and grab them….

Lately, I’ve been trying to clear my mind, like really clear it….completely clear it. Get rid of all that garbage that has built up for SO long, as long as the Wall of China, long. It has taken me a long time, but I’m letting go of all the negative things in my life slowly, one by one and each day I feel a little bit better. I’m not saying it is easy and a lot of the time I’m struggling. But, don’t let that jackass voice upstairs have control! The one that says,  you can’t do it, you’re going to fail,  no one will like you if you do this,  you’re too fat or skinny, you know, THAT voice. That stupid voice that tells me I’m an absolutely terrible person one day, and the next, I’m superior to the human race, or something like that. You get the point.

So how do you get rid of it?

That’s a good question, I’m still trying to figure out. But, here’s what I got. Every time you hear that POS voice telling you something like, “hey girl, you really shouldn’t wear that, your fat is showing”,  “You can’t talk to that guy, he’s way out of your league” or “you’ll never be able to get that job, or you can’t do that”.  TELL IT NO. Tell it no every damn chance you get, make note cards, write it in your calender, on your laptop, your hand, your face, your friggin’ toilet paper. I don’t care.  And don’t let anything stop you! Wear that outfit and feel sexy in your own skin, talk to that guy and get his number, sell yourself to that employer and get the damn job, pursue your dreams!

Go after what you want and if you don’t know what you want, then take the time to figure it out and then make a plan.

Be the person God made you to be ❤

Because nothing is more than worth it when you achieve your wildest dreams, when you open that present on your birthday and it is exactly what you wanted. Of course, all that nagging wasn’t easy ;), but life is not easy. I can’t tell you how many times I have fallen down, but I can tell you all the times that I have gotten up, so get up and know that things won’t always be easy, but don’t let that stop you.

Feeling super motivational today apparently!

But for real, be a boss at life! You don’t have to change the world or start a business, but you can reach for whatever you put your mind to if that is going to art school, or becoming an electrician, comedian, social media star, or even something simple as being nice to your neighbor. Don’t let that rejection letter stop you from trying, or let someone tell you how you should go about things.

When Thomas Edison was asked “How did it feel to fail 1,000 times?” Edison replied, “I didn’t fail 1,000 times.” That’s the kind of attitude that changes everything. He saw every “failed attempt” as a learning experience, a chance to improve.

I need to write and hear this just as much as anyone else who needs to remember to be more positive. I can’t even tell you all the bad days I have and how I just want to quit, but I wouldn’t be where I want to be if I quit and all my work would have been for nothing.

“ Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.” Winston Churchill

“I never dreamed about success, I worked for it” -Estée Lauder

“My life didn’t please me, so I created my life” -Coco Chanel

Here´s a great book if your looking to get past a mental block. It´s short and sweet!     Link Here: The War of Art

 

 

 

 

Choices, Christianity, and Death by Skateboarding.

Fall is the best time of the year ❤

BLEH! What a past couple of weeks it has been. I mean not only am I in a foreign country, where I barely know how to get by, (but am learning!), I tore my ACL completely while skateboarding and have to get surgery. Have you ever heard the saying, “one step forward, two steps back” ? Well that is how I feel. I make a move in the right direction only to go back, but one step forward IS one step forward, no matter how many steps back. I also have been trying to get rid of an infection since I got here, and needless to say it has not been fun, but as one friend has told me many times over, attitude is everything!

I’ve been staying positive, well trying…

Of course, I have a few bad days, don’t we all? But I choose not to let this get me down. When you believe you’re here for a reason, you really have to hold onto that regardless of what happens to you. You have to choose to keep pushing because it is all we can do. And why go by the days hating life when you can choose not to? I’m not saying there aren’t things like depression and anxiety because I’ve been there, but everything is a choice. Today I’m choosing to stay positive regardless of my health conditions, but do please pray for me, this is no way fun!

So, I haven’t really mentioned it a whole lot in my blog, but I am a Christian, and it is what I hold most important in my life. I’ve certainly avoided it because today, I believe that people are more prone to be prejudice against someone who believes in God. I’ve seen it multiple times, but I don’t think that these instances should make me feel afraid to share with others about a big part of who I am as a person.

 So, what does it mean to be a Christian?

Being a Christian does not mean I judge people for not believing in God or that I hate gays, or think that I am better than anyone. In fact, this has nothing to do with being a Christian. Being a Christian is believing in the Bible and that Jesus died for everyone’s sins. It is living the truth of his death and resurrection and applying his word to my life and trying to live a life like Jesus did. Jesus didn’t hate anyone, he loved everyone. He hung out with the gangsters, liars, murderers, the people who we today, stay far away from at all costs. He even preached against religion, saying the Pharisees were hypocrites.

It does make me sad that I haven’t been more open about this because I was afraid of what people would think. Lately though, I have been caring less and less of what people think of me. People are not going to like me whether I believe in God, or whether it be the stupid fact for the way I dress. Basically, it doesn’t matter what people think besides you. If you love you, then who cares. Not do whatever you want and burn down the house who cares, but don’t let others affect the way you live your life! I always thought that I had a “don’t care” attitude, but I wasn’t really being real with myself. When you sit down and ask yourself, How do I really, truly feel about this? it will surprise you when you actually process what you’re thinking.

And the real, true people who love you, will love you for you.

I also know I have said in so many of my posts that you guys read, TO LOVE YOURSELF! I know I have preached this over and over, but it is SO important.  I hope you know that I am still on that journey and each day I grow closer and closer to that reality of really loving myself and not caring what others think of me. I am thankful that I begun this journey in December of 2016, but I still have a long way to go, but I am getting closer and closer to it each day! I hope you know that just because I say it doesn’t mean it is an easy thing to do. It is a process, so please take my advice again, and truly learn yourself before you let someone else know you before you have a clue where to even begin. It’s worth it to you and those around you, I promise!

Like I said before, and what I’m sure you’ve heard a million times in your life, is that everything is a choice. Sometimes it sucks to think about it, but if you can sit down and think, I have the choice to doing something positive or do something negative and really think about it, then I think you would be surprised with yourself. Besides when you choose to be negative, you don’t only hurt yourself, but you hurt those around you as well.

I’ve been reading this AMAZING book lately and what makes me even more excited, is the fact that I am getting closer to starting a business of my very own. Each idea and bad idea that I have is shaping what I want to do or don’t want to do. The book is #GIRLBOSS by Sophia Amoruso of NastyGal. I’ll drop the link down here. I would recommend reading it even if you don’t intend to start a business of your own because there is so much great life advice that you can get from the book and apply to your everyday life.

Here is the link to buy:  #GIRLBOSS

I almost wrote a few blogs over the past couple of weeks, but none of them felt right and I chose not to submit the very angry post I wrote out last week. I figured it would probably be best I didn’t share a post when I was having a shit day, and I’m really glad I didn’t! Although, it is important to share that I do have those bad and angry feelings because I am only human after all.  As usual thanks for reading <3. Much love and I look forward to sharing with you soon the progress of my business that I’m going to be starting in the next few weeks. Here goes nothing!

“When you are content to be simply yourself and don’t compare or compete, everyone will respect you.” –Lao Tzu